OMFG I am PISSED

You know I am all for an occasional joke, that is when it's funny. When it comes to my family that is where I draw the line. I don't care if I have a purple, orange, green or freaking yellow uncle, you don't insult him! That is so flipping racist that it makes me want to scream. My uncle and cousins might be black but it doesn't give you the right to criticize them on their color. They are my family so back the fuck off. Then when you insult homosexuals is also where I draw the line. My sister is gay and that just infuriates me. I think as long as their happy ,who gives a damn what they are? Then the one word that pisses me off the most is retard, DON'T EVER CALL ME THAT again unless you want to see an ugly side of me...

I just don't get it

You know when it comes to family I'm always there for people but when someone screws up the relationship between me and them for the gazillionth time it's like them saying that they hate me and never want anything to do with me anymore. I won't name names but my birthday took place over 9 days ago and I got facebook im's, txt msgs, and phone calls. The one thing I didn't get was msgs from my bff's from logansport which was just a stab to the heart for me. Then what made me even more pissed off was my so called father not calling me on my day. He just txted me which he thought would just do. Here's a clue for you better think again. I'm not upset really because I expected it...I'm just pissed off to the extreme because even my mom mentioned that it was ridicolous that he didn't even send a card like he does every year. I mean even people that I barely knew from school wished me happy birhday. My sister in-law said though don't let him ruin my day. It's my DAY. So when it hit midnight that night.. then I could be pissed. But like my mom said it wouldn't do any good because he will never change. So why am I trying? I mean even my stepmom and sister msged me on facebook. I just think that mine and my father's relationship doesn't make sense anymore. :/ i just don't get it

18th birthday

In about 11 days I will be 18 years old. Which means one thing to me... FREEDOM!!! Will I miss being 17, sort of..not really. I mean at 17 I had my second niece. That was awesome. But I think me turning 18 opens more doors of opprutunities for me, and I'm looking forward to my future.

JERKS

Today has been so weird. First I found out I didn't have to babysit for the boys that drive me crazy, and then I found out I didn't have to watch the other three kids I usually watch. So what did I think? That I would just be lazy all day until my mom had to go to work. Then, she got up at 10:30 this morning and asked me if I wanted to go to the grocery store. I figured..ahh why not?, and then Mom's phone rang and it was her boyfriend saying he was on his way home. My first thought was great that stupid mother f***** is going to be home with me until my brother gets off work, and of course what makes it worse is if it rains tomorrow he will be home tomorrow when I watching all 5 kids and none of them will pay attention or mind me tomorrow if Grandpa is here. Sometimes I feel as though he is a selfish inconsiderent jerk. And what makes it worse is he is freakin LAZY, and he says that me, my mom, and brother are a lot more lazier than him... Bull!!! :/ He needs to come up with a new threat though because everytime he gets mad at me, he always says, " There will be no tv, internet, or phones." I mean how many times can you say that, and it's not even a good threat. The phones and internet are under my mom's name. He CAN'T touch them. One time he got really mad at me that during the night he didn't know I was still awake and I heard him say to his friend if I don't do what he says next time he will go down to the basement and cut the cable cord to my room. He really has anger issues he needs to sort out.

My first year from my new life

When I was told I was moving to Kokomo I'll be honest, my first reaction, I didn't have a reaction. My friends were my major concern. I mean I was 16 I was only thinking about my junior year and how I'd go to prom with them and graduate with them. What was I supposed to do ? What was I going to tell them ? Moving...again? I mean I was still in shock...I wanted to new change not a new school. When I told my friends they were ok about it until the very end of the year when we all were emotional. Even when I was my teachers it made me lose it. But that was a year ago, and now I'm almost done with my junior year, and I've been asked do I miss my past? I just say, NO , but if there was a way to bring all my logansport friends to Kokomo, I'd do it in a heart beat. But I'd never go back to Logansport because here I've been pushed to my hardest, and I've excelled better than I have in my whole life. So, for my senior year I can't wait to graduate from Kokomo with the best years of my life still ahead of me.